Before I start with anything else, I want to say, you matter. Things may seem as though you have no one at certain points, but there are people who care about you, even though it may not always be apparent. If you really feel like you have absolutely no one, think about the future. The fact that everyone.. yes, everyone finds someone who they care about so much, and the feeling is mutual. I know sometimes it feels as though your life is worth little to nothing, but leaving this world before its your time to leave is always too soon. I know it seems too impersonal to be believable, but even though I may not know you personally, if i heard about you taking your life, or feeling depressed, i would care. I care. I care about each and every person, because everyone has the right to live their life. Nobody should feel as though they dont deserve the right to life.
You may be thinking, “who the hell are you to be saying all this to me”. Well to answer that question, If you’re feeling sad, lonely, depressed, like no one cares, like youre too fat, too ugly, never good enough,unwanted, rejected by family, abnormal, if you’ve had problems being gay, coming out to parents and friends, if you’ve ever looked in the mirror and felt disgusted with what you’d see, if you’ve been physically abused, if you’ve been bullied, if you’ve been backstabbed one too many times, if you’ve hated yourself….. well, I’ve been there. I’ve felt what you’re feeling. I was depressed. I would cut myself on a daily basis. I’ve starved myself. I’ve spent nights sobbing on my bathroom floor. I’ve wanted to run away more times than I can count. I resorted to drugs and alcohol, cutting, and bad decision making. No one knew. I’d paint a smile on my face like I always have. I seemed happy, but I was far from.
and well, my point is, i got through it. im healthy now. i feel good. i finally found people who I can call friends. and more than anything im so thankful that i didnt take my life when i was going to. that i get to experience so many things i would’ve missed out on. I’ve been in love. I’ve developed close friendships with some people that I never expected to be friends with.
because of the pain ive gone through, im a stronger person. and im a happier person now that i see beauty in so many people and things.
things get better. they always do. you have the right to live. you are beautiful. you are strong for getting even to this point. now you just have to push through. and you really can do it. i believe in you.
get through life one day at a time. try to find the beauty that surrounds you. think of the future; of the things you want to do and the people you will meet.
if you need someone to talk to, message me. im always here to talk. and i know its scary, but talking to a responsible adult will help so much. they will be there for you no matter what. if you don’t have someone like that, please utilize the numbers below. and if you message me i’ll be more than happy to give you my number and talk to you.
i love you all dearly.
Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
